Oh My Hell!

{sorry i swore}

LOOK WHAT MICHAEL BROUGH ME HOME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im dieing.

I have ALWAYS wanted to play.

I have always wanted to be just like Jewel. :)

play and sing in randome dive bars.

{ok, not the bar part..lol}

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But really, This is what I secretly dreamed of.

but really, how realistic is that?

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I asked mike the other day...

"Geez, I would LOVE to learn Guitar and finally learn to play"

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I can't believe it.

He hid behind the pantry door and slowly closed it so I could see "part" of the guitar case.

I got CHILLS down my back...

screamed and HUGGED!!

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I think You tube will be my best friend the next couple weeks...

Im gunna learn this.....just WATCH! :)

So does this mean I have to take my nails off?

hummm....

Morning.

I love mornings like this.

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Everybody heals with love.

{"everybody" by Ingrid Michaelson}

Great song.

Great lady.

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Happy friday!

Todays quote:

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Owning our own story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing we'll ever do. ~brene brown

{thanks mom}

New Kix.

Dear New running Shoes,

You cost alot. But you were so worth it.

you did NOT let me down.

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Dear Mile 3,

I was "lady like" and did NOT pee in a bush at the church.

I peed at the park in a bathroom. You proud?

I dunno what it is with running and peeing.

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Dear Mile 5,

Pain in my leg......

Please go numb. I don't want to limp and run.

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Dear Mile 8,

I prayed before I left.

For:

Courage.

Strength in my legs.

and rain.....

Yup! I prayed that it would rain.

I love rain.

I hit that wall at mile 8.

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Guess what...............................

A beautiful song came on.

and it started to down pour.

Coincidance?

Maybe.

I dunno.....

I floated my way home in the rain. :)

To this beautiful song....it was magic!

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"Smashing into you"

{By beyonce....youtube it. You will Love.}

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Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
I should, I find myself in love racing the earth

And I'm soaked in your love
And love was right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

I wanna run, run, smash into you
I wanna run, run, smash into you

It flows, what I hear no one else has to know
'Cause I know in what we have is worth first place in gold

And I'm soaked in your love
And love right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

I wanna run, run, smash into you
I wanna run, run, smash into you, smash into you

Head down, as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
I should, I'm in love and I'm racing the earth

And I'm soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong

Oh, I wanna run, smash into you
I'm willing to run, smash into you
I'm willing to run and run, and run, and run, ooh
I'm ready to run and run, and run, and run, ooh

And I wanna run, run, smash into you
I'm willing to run, run, smash into you

I came home, drenched in sweat and rain.

Kicked up my feet with a large glass of ice water....

waiting for my husband to get back from clocking my run.

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10.2

:)

I DID IT!

Pile of CRAP?

We had another craft day at my moms.....

I could do these everyday.

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So tell me.....

Below is a BIG pile of sheer curtins.

Pile of crap?

OR magical?

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I wanted to make a scarf so badly. One I saw in the DownEast Mag I got in the mail.

So im my searchings in my mom's tunnel of endless possiablities of STUFF!!!!

I found these curtins....

don't LAUGH!

My sister and I and My mom laughed till we had tears......

cuz Im WEARING A CURTAIN.....and it ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how cute huh... :)

I even added little puffy grapes...

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Im so wearing this to church on sunday!

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and everyone will wish they could wear draperies and pull it off.

THE END!

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I had to take snippits of my mom's house.

I want to be buried there when I die.

My mom's house is so full of peace.

unconditional love.

creativity.

calmness.

uplifting.

and they are OFF!

The girls left for Girls camp This morning.

I dunno who was more excited.

me?

them?

Jackson?

I think it gave it away when jax screamed WAAAHOOO they are GONE!....after they got out of the car.......

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After this morning, I was GLAD for the break. :)

NO MORE:

Thats mine!

you didn't ask!

quit going in my room!

and all the name calling that goes along with teens!

*SIGH*

this mama needs a break.

but will glad when they come home on friday!

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I left them with little notes that I hid in their lunches today.

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ps-----I painted my bench :) eeee!

will you marry me?

I think The DI and I should get married.

I ran in real fast JUST to buy books to rip apart...

and These are my treasures I found today.

:)

{Mom, don't be a hater}

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I don't think you realize just how BIG this painting and mirror are..

THE mirror must be old....cuz DANG its heavy!!

I had to give a little jump and a little kick ...thats how excited I am!

lol

aren't they LOVELY!!

I think the mirror and painting will go in my room!

And..........the best part?

ready?

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they were 50% off all mirrors and pictures..

so I bought them each for $5.

SHUT UP I KNOW!

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Oh and

Dear mom,

Sorry, I know you were worried about me today. I did not respond to emails and such...

I just remembered LAST NIGHT.....yes, last night that the girls have girls camp this week and they leave in the morning.

So i had to shop and pack and buy secret sister stuff.

and do a million other things...

I did, however make it to the DI and lowes to buy paint!

You know, Priorities!!

love,

#5 daughter!

COLOR?????

Mike made this for me in less then a day!

GO MIKE!

From an old door I had the the garage.

I wanted a Looooooong bench to put at the bottom of my bed, with pillows!

I know........to cute huh!!

and I know your super jealous..... ;)

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Tomorrow is paint day...

anyone have a suggestion for PAINT color?

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My room has no color yet..........sad.

Just my black bed.

{remember my pictures?}

my room is boreing!

I NEED COLOR!

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MOM! mama, mommy......mom, mom, mom......mama.....mom!

comon' throw out your ideas......

Orange?

Aqua?

White?

Black?

baby pink?

Yellow/mustard?

POO green?

Or????

eeeeee.....can't wait!

its like CHRISTMAS FOR ME!!!

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here is a pic of my bedroom so you can get ideas....

{I know! Boreing!}

READY........................GO!!!

today.

Ever woke up and thought before getting out of bed.

"I don't want to do today"

"I will do tomorrow, but I don't want to do today"

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well, I don't!

But I have to!

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Ever thought to yourself.

How do I fix this?

Im talking in general.........situations, feelings, broken hearts?

does time really heal?

or is that just a mith.

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Ever Thought to youself, how do you carry On?

I need ever so badly that sign that I have wanted for so long.

"Keep calm carry on" {In orange please}

Everything In my life has revolved around that thought.

It has carried me over mountains for sure.

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Im gunna have to do today.

Im gunna have to do tomorrow.

Somehow I did yesterday.....right?

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These are my polka dot toes.

I would Like to be a polka-dot in my next life.

and if you MUST know......nosey. :) My tattoo means "Mother".

hills are DUMB!

WOOOOT WOOOOT!

hot mama's!

This was take 3....

I couldn't run fast enough, until I realized I can set my timer on my camera to 20 seconds..

lol---duh!

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We did a run up the layton trail this morning.

HOLY COW-----

they are all runners.....like the "REAL" runners...

and somehow failed to tell me all the HILLS that are on this run.

Ha, very funny guys!!!!!

NO, not tiny little bumps...im talking hills that you SLED ON...steep, hands and knees crawling HILLS!!

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needless to say...

I may or may not be walking much. ;)

its what I love.......

This is my therapy.

This is my drug.

This is my love.

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My camera.

My outlook.

My children.

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I could do this for the rest of my life.

She is full of light!

Full of beauty!

and full of LIFE!

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Im glad she is mine!

Dear Mom,

Thank you for having a craft day.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for being my friend.

Thank you for letting the kids run wet and wild through your house while we sat and talked.

Can't wait for our next craft day...hopefully with all 5 sisters!!

We had a craft day yesterday at my moms.....

so fun!

isn't my mom so cute!!

the only ones that could make it was my sister Amie and I.

We giggled and talked.

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Below is a fabric necklace I have been wanting to make FOREVER.

so Me and My mom attemped it.....

If anyone can figure out stuff....its my mom!

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NOT the finished product.............

still working on it.

so cute tho! AH!

Amie making a skirt!!

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Autumn took this picture of charlee......

good work AUTUMN!

And by the way.....

we have a Dr. In the house!

{uggg.....wanna know how much neosporin there was everywhere?}

AND....now Im out of bandaids... :)

Then we ended our day with this.

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I gotta HAVE IT!

Im going STRAIGHT to the DI today.

and buying old BOOKS!

and then tearing them apart!!

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Seriously, i found these beauties last night in my searchings...

and I literally, GASPED!

Its a must. I will have these.............you just wait!

They make my heart sing.

OR maybe, Im just plain nuts!

As I ran......and ran and ran.......and ran.

I ran the most I have ever ran in my life this morning.

I say that every week it seems.

9.1 miles.

As I clocked it last night in my durango where I was to run

I couldn't believe I was going to do ALL that distance on foot.

It just seemed to far for my little body to carry me.

6:15 this morning. I was off!

Nervous and insecure about myself and My body's strength.

I Hit a wall at mile 3 1/2

I had to tell my body. Steady and true.

& keep it slow......

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{Picture by my neice kenzie she took up in Bear lake, I helped her edit it}

so pretty and inspiring!

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I hit the half way mark.

Choked down some energy GOO......{oh my}

Washed it down with water before I threw up.

and then I was on my way back home.....

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Mile 6

I WAS A ROCKSTAR!

No longer Insecure. Head up high.

Tunes cranked and my feet were in a rhythm.

Felt unstoppable!

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Mile 8

Steady and true Annie............keep it slow.

I was indeed running home. I wanted nothing more then to make it home.

to see my house around the corner.

Legs numb.

But trusting my body to stay on that steady Rhythm.

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Mile 9.

I DID IT!

saw my house.........

Tears of Joy filled my eyes.

That I DID IT!

Me!

I did.

All by myself!

I pushed myself.....talked to myself...

promised myself...

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Now depends how you look at all this.....

but doesn't it sound a little familar?

like maybe......................, um, Life its self?

humm.....something to think about.

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I found this little quote a while ago....

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Running.

Something you can do by yourself under your own power.

You can go any direction.

Fast or slow as you wanted, fighting the wind if you felt like it.

Seeking out new sights just on the strength of your feet & the courage of your lungs.
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Next week:
10 MILES!

delightful!

This was on my front door from my neighbor.

I LOVED opening up my door and seeing it sitting there.

Made me so happy!

I love my neighbors, they have become such sweet friends to me!

And.........the Watermelon was soo sweet and juicy.

mmmmmm!

Dear Miss Autumn,

Don't grow up!

My day is................

...........filled with HER!

I know I blog alot about her....

but how can I not when she RULES THE HOUSE!

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Todays messes:

Dumping the INTIRE container of hot coco on the floor!

Poor Autumn was the one to walk in on it, as we were all upstairs getting ready for the days adventures. So she was sweet enough to clean it up....to find out it was from the kitchen to the front room couch.

Note to Self: Don't buy a nice house or nice furniture till your children and grown and moved out!!!

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Proof that she does have a little "Devil" to her.

Top left picture!

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But then she sits and sings out the window.

And then my heart turns to mush!

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Like My belt I made?

So do I...... :)

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Todays Thankfuls:

My parents.

Calls drive -in IN perry...{mmmm root beer}

That I still believe in good.

That I still believe in surrounding yourself with Light.

Money to pay bills.

Opportunities.

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Thought of the day:

If you want to know what you are thinking about....look at your results.

Thanks Mama! :)

Onery

Autumn went for a bike ride today and came back with a picture on her phone of this stop sign.

It's just a stop sign up the street.

Someone added "in the name of love"

Cute eh?

She loved it so much and made it her screen saver.

The more I thought about it durring the day.....

I wanted to have the picture myself....

So I went up and took a picture of it!

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If anyone needs to STOP.

Its me!

I just need to slow DOWN!

and realize those who i have in my grasp...

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and what better way, then for someone you love.

kinda gay?

your right....it is.

but true!

what does Stop in the name of LOVE mean to you?

think about it....

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I asked Autumn what it meant:

she says,

"Stop because I love you"

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I asked Mike what it ment to him:

He said,

"Stop leaving the toliet lid up! In the name of LOVE"

And everything thats holy. Stop!"

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I asked Jackson:

he said,

"Stop farting on me its gross"

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Abbie's Answer:

she said,

"Stop because im cool"

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hummmmmm.........

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Ive been Onery today...

Maybe cuz its A gazillion degree's outside?

or maybe cuz i have the right to have onery days.

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don't we all?

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Charlee is so sweet.

so loving

so mean

so naughty

so mischeivious

so curious

so beautiful

so stubborn

so smart

so bratty

so huggable

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Will she survive?

The last three days constisted of:

Cleaning up 20 dishwasher packets cut open and smeared on my kitchen floor.

90 million stickers stuck to her hair, walls and floors.

bandaids covered her whole leg.

Peanut Butter smeared all over her legs and arms and couch.

Ate all my gum in my purse and camera bag.

won't brush her teeth

won't wear a diaper

won't wear what I pick out.

only wants chocolate milk

wants the whole bag of crayons not just a handful

{i don't trust her with the whole bag..lol}

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3 DAYS PEOPLE!!

Maybe its not if she will survive......

Its if i WILL!?

She does love jackson.

and wants to wear his clothes. Everyday!

"Jaxthon, play with chawee?"

Is what I hear everyday! Soooo sweet!

I love that they love each other....

Happy Sunday!

ABOUT ME!!

"Sometimes it has to be about me"

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dont cha just love that saying?

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My friend marissa and I did some pictures of each other today!

Oh, it was so much fun!

Thanks Lisa, for my new hair COLOR!

:)